So much crap has hit the fan..
I, like i have said so much, am not aware who reads this. I have had people tell me to keep writing and people have responded to ideas i have brought up on here. But i don't know if those same people read it. I am really using this to document it- and always feel free to let me know your thoughts.

Well, anytime you go through any kind of learning experience, you realize new things you never thought of before. Well, I don't have time to write it all out, and who would want to be bored with more stories of disappointment when there is plenty of it out there in a sin-bent world. But lately, my prayer has been for what people are capable of. CS Lewis once said, "its easier to pray for a bore than to go see one." Thats exactly what i am doing right now.

Well, i won't bore you with the melodramatic details. How i "feel" can be summed up in Alanis Morisette's song "All I really want"

But i recently remembered a story from one of my mission trips that i will always remember. For time's sake, i won't go in detail about everything we did on the trip, but it was such a life-changer, to say the least. We went to Honduras, and one of the days we were there we spent bulding a house, really a room, for a 7 person family. The house we were building was a ways in the mountains, and our bus could only go so far. We parked the bus at the end of kind of a cul-de-saq and part of our group went to help with the construction/labor part, while the rest of our group stayed back to socialize as well as distribute some neccessities like clothes, food, and of COURSE BUBBLES!!!! (all honduran kids love babujas! ;) you quickly learn..) So me and 2 other girls notice women taking care of kids. Their house was probably the nicest in the neighborhood- it was made out of cement, instead of wood, or tin, but still far too cramped for how big their family was. Trying to practice my spanish, I attempt to hold the most basic conversation. We can understand each other pretty well- even with their turbo speed accent, and my "gringa" (white) "es-PAN-yal!"

They don't have much, but what they lack, they make up in hospitality and a servant, humble spirit. They put out chairs for us to sit on. They welcomed us into their home to see their newborn baby. Our conversations were nothing special. I have had deeper conversations with people I hardly stay n toouch with now in my own native language. But love surpasses all barriers. They asked Kaylie, my friend and I, to be their godmothers. Did we deserve that? Just showing them human kindness, and we get the biggest honor you could ask for. What they said the last day we were there, I will never forget. They asked, in spanish, if we could take their daughter back to the US with us- in our suitcases.
It broke my heart.
What i wish I had said to them is, you are so blessed beyond measure. You know what real joy is.
Why would they even want to come here?? The night we got back, our entire group went out to eat. I think to Cheddars. We were all in traveling clothes, exhausted, and glad to have an AC and familiarity. But waiting for our table, our entire group felt the same emotion, having experienced what we did in Honduras. It hit us like a ton of bricks. The kind of superficial culture we live in. I remember weeks after coming home, I didn't want to dress up. I didnt want to attract attention when there are so many more important issues in our world.
I will never forget our friends in Honduras. Material possessions weigh small in comparison to having true gratitude in life.

I have a little catching up to do on this blog- even though this is the fastest I’ve had a recurring post! Well on Tuesday of last week, I was heading to my house (for some sustenance- lunch) after a morning of classes. I was on Slide, a major road in Lubbock, and I was turning right onto 82nd, another major street that runs perpendicular. So, I am turning, and still kind of looking to my left to make sure no one was coming on 82nd St. And in an alley pretty soon after this intersection, there is a –moron—backing up his truck and trailer out of the alley, perpendicular onto 82nd, top 5 busiest streets in Lubbock. Out of it? Scatterbrained? Unaware? I don’t know what the word for him is. Anyway, when I look onto the road he is in the process of backing up, as I am approaching, to avoid hitting him, I swerve, and my car goes up onto the sidewalk, the sidewalk has a Telephone pole just FEET away from where I am, and I just remember looking at that pole, thinking GOD please don’t let this be what I think it is. That’s the last thing I remember seeing, because I blacked out after that. I wake up to find pedestrians surrounding my car, I realize, once again, what happened, and I immediately call my dad. At this point I am conscious and look in the mirror, wondering how bad I was banged up. And when I look, I see that my mouth is bleeding. I don’t remember this at all, but I bit my tongue (with a lot of force) upon impact. I notice the the people outside my car are trying to talk to me, so I open my door. And they are asking me if I can get out and walk. I do manage to get up, and the first thing I see when I look down is how ginormous my ankle is- softball-sized now, I am not even exaggerating. The term kankle is an understatement! But I am like, oh well, I am walking on it, its obviously not broken. And the first thing I say is “Oh my gosh, my CAR!” And this really genuinely concerned guy, who was talking to me the most, was like, But you are ok! And I was like, but my car!!! (This car was my high school graduation present, so I have only had it 3 years and I still really like it and probably wouldn’t trade it. So I am really upset I got in a wreck. It’s a 2005 Honda Accord Coope. Reliable, sporty enough, sun roof, and most importantly 6-disc cd changer AND such good GAS MILEAGE, not to mention SAFE- all front and side airbags came out). Everything you could ask for in a car. But I didn’t even look back to see the damage, because a Fire EMS was sent immediately. All I remember is them putting a neck brace around me, I thought what is that about? And them asking me which hospital I wanted to go to. After they asked me, I told them I had no back or neck pain- thank God! That is the worst injury and one of the most common in car accidents. When I get to the hospital, I have, who knows how many x-rays. I lost count. I was there almost 5 hours, but I slept probably 2. If you called me, I don’t remember what I said to you! I was so hyped up on pain killers. They gave me injections and said it was “like Tylenol on steroids.” I left with an arm sling, bandaged ankle, and crutches. The nurse was like, you may need these (the crutches). And he was like, how tall are you? – “5’9’’” – Oh we’re gonna need to adjust them! And I was like, “Oh don’t worry about it, I probably won’t use them- theyre kind of dorky.” Haha my mom ALWAYS does this- she speaks for me and goes, “oh no she doesn’t mean that, that’s the pain killers talking!” –No….actually I really think that. If my foot was broken and really couldn’t walk I’d use them, but that’s it. lol. Anyways, I take them just in case. Well anyone who’s been in a car accident knows what a head ache it is. This is my first one, and it was scary, a physical pain, and just a pain in the neck all together (metaphorically!) I never want this to happen again. I consider myself a really good driver, this accident really did catch me by surprise. (as it would anyone) But lately I have been really cautious how I drive because I am the nanny for these girls. Taylor is 7 and Landrie is 4. Being their nanny involves driving- a lot. I pick them up from school everyday and avoiding accidents in that parking lot is crazy in itself. Soccer moms +cell phones+boat-sized SUVs= not a good combination. I always get in and out and quick as possible. Taylor and Landrie, the girls I pick up have come accustomed to me sayin, “there are so many horrible drivers out there.” You know the usual comments after you see some one do something careless. So one day, this person just switched lanes. And I was definitely taking up that spot- hello. And Taylor just goes, “Oh people just don’t know how to drive!” haha, I was like, oh you learn so well ;) She told her mom, I don’t know why Meredith got in an accident, she is a good driver, really! But one time, we were late to dance, and I was kind of swingin around to get in this parking spot, and she was like “you are a crazy driver.” lol. Admittingly, I can be. But seriously I did not see this accident coming and it didn’t happen because I was being “crazy” or wreckless then. I haven’t driven since the accident, but I have a feeling I am going to drive like a grandma- double check all mirrors before changing lanes, actually GO the speed limit, etc.
So right now, the situation is, my car is in a wreck shop, and there is a high probability it is totaled. I was definitely in better shape than my car was  I am glad, I am not badly injured, of course! I am so fortunate, but the car liability is just one of those head aches involved in all this mess. The, like I aptly named him before, moron, claims he WAS NOT backing up. However, there are 3 eye witnesses backing me up to say he was indeed in reverse and moving onto the street. Whatever, he’s trying to get out of it. Not surprised. Our insurance company was already informed, and they said they will just sue his company the difference if he doesn’t pay.
Well so all of this has really enlightened me on how injured, handicapped, or people recovering from surgery must feel all the time. I feel like I sympathize with Tyra- you can probably guess what I am talking about. You know her overly dramatic (so-called) documentaries on what it’s like to be homeless, overweight, black, a middle-class white male (just kidding, she didn’t do the last one). I say so-called, because honestly who really associates a genuine documentary, and thinks Tyra Banks would be the perfect candidate to play a part in one. But it’s her show, and I do give her “snaps” for enlightening people about those kind of issues. And what I am sayin is, IT’S TRUE! Now that I am “the injured one” I see what it’s like! People feel sorry for you. And not the kind of attention you want! Its one thing if its sympathy. But if its pity, its like seriously quit. Like this one random college girl saw my arm in a sling, and was like “Are you ok?” Its like, NOOOO I am totally fine, this ankle brace and arm sling I just wear for preventative reasons! And then my naïve former beauty queen professor didn’t even believe me. I walk in, and she saw I was obviously with my arm sling and foot wrapped, and I just stated that, yeah I was in a car accident, explained to her what happened, and just asked where a chair was I could pull up to prop my foot up. She was like, “oh here, use this one in the front.” And then went on to say, well you don’t LOOK like you’ve been in an accident. I mean usually people have bruises and scars all over!” And I was just like, yeah I was REAL fortunate!” What I wanted to be like was, you really want to see bruises, I will show you, if you reaaallly want to know…” (I do have like 3 areas of bruising, 2 on my hips and one on my chest where the seatbelt was. And then I have scarring on my arm). My friend was like, alright bitch. But my dad knows her personally and was like, she probably just meant you look like you are in good shape for being in a wreck. And I’m inclined to think like my dad, because, 1. I do like her and know she has good intentions. 2. She’s extremely naïve!!! Read a post on this blog about her, Mitzi. She truly means well but is just kind of unaware sometimes. So I totally get the vibe of people treating you differently!! I see how handicapped people would be annoyed by this. I actually had a pretty good friend at A&M who is handicapped. It made me think if I ever made him feel this way. But I knew him so well, I never really paid much attention to his disability. In fact he would let me hitch a ride on the back of his motorized wheel chair and cruise around with him! Makin goooood time is what I’m talkin bout ;) Anyway, I am slowly recovering. It’s so hard to be patient. I told my doctor I was sick of my swollen kankle and wanted them to just amputate the whole stupid friggin thing. He was like, now you are going to learn a good lesson in patience! ;) Well I certainly am. I later discovered though, a small DETAIL they forgot to inform me about. In the hospital they just said I had a sprained ankle. Well when I went to my primary care doctor a day or two later, he was looking at my history he got from the hospital, and informed me I had a degree 4 otherwise known as the worst possible sprain you can get!!! He said I had a microchip, meaning, a piece of bone actually broke away after the tendons ruptured. Ok so tonight my roommate and I are texting, about a movie I wanted to see, and she was telling me about the “outlandish director” and she was like I have no idea what movies he’s done, you might want to google it. That reminded me, I wanted to google sprained ankles, because this was the first one I had ever had, and was not really familiar with them. So I type in “degree 4 sprain ankle” click the Wikipedia reference, and find out category 4’s require SURGERY!!!! They never mentioned that and I was riled up to discover that lil DETAIL…Anyway, all my flowers make me feel better, and resting of course is key. I am feeling better. It just made me realize how dangerous cars are. I want to bike everywhere, no gas required, and you stay away from idiots backing up perpendicular to the road. I am thankful for the prayers and thoughts! And drivers everywhere are in my prayers, I hope this never happens to me again, and I hope no one else has this happen either! Its kind of inevitable with the careless drivers out there, and how much we depend on driving, BUUUT it’s really nothing you want to happen. Be extremely cautious!! Like my granddad says, remember, you are not only driving for yourself, you have to drive defensively for other people’s mistakes.

Alright, so after thinking about it, for a while I decided to go ahead and post a "POLITICAL" blog. I get irritated when people are overly political (i.e. bring it up in church, write every other status on their facebook who they are voting for, etc.) but I figured, this is my personal blog, and honestly lets just be realistic how many people read this/ take it seriously! ; ) So this may be a tad unorganized, but just humor me and keep reading. My points are valid- if I was turning this in as an assignment or for my job, I might organize it differently. But obviously, it's a blog…
Anyways, I am voting for: Obama, Biden in November! Here is why:
First, I try my hardest to be as unbiased as possible, and really it is pretty easy for me to be. Because I would consider myself to have moderate political views. I am a registered Republican. But that is only because I wanted to vote for Mike Huckabee in the primaries. I liked Clinton and Obama about the same at that point and could not choose. Although I am a registered Republican, I share democratic ideals and agree with them on a range of issues. If we are all being honest, we can't say, yes I am strictly Republican, or yes I am strictly a Democrat. There are all types of overlaps and every person has a difference of opinion on the importance of certain issues. All this is to say, I really am not biased. I would feel comfortable voting for either Republican or Democrat, as long as they have qualities I deem honorable, are consistent in their ideologies and rationales of morality and ethical laws, and a person who is a sincere and honest leader, as they will have the most powerful position in the world, we ought to trust them. I truly feel this way about both Obama and Biden and here is why:
My roommates are all voting McCain in November. Don't ask me why. ; ) But ONE of my roommates just loves to talk about it with me. So all of my thoughts on why the majority of people are voting for McCain are largely based on her reasons. (Also her families beliefs, because when I have attended her families gatherings on Labor Day, and other times, politics is a popular conversation piece, and they are all conservative Republicans). Now, none of her family actually likes McCain. In fact, they have admitted to voting for McCain to vote AGAINST Obama. That is their right, however, I would like to know what reasons people have for not liking Obama other than "I'm scared what he will do with our country." (aka, do I catch some racism?) Their thoughts on McCain are, "He is self-centered, arrogant, I just don't like him." And their thoughts on Palin are, "Do you know why she's even running when she has a 4 month old with down syndrome and all of her other family problems?" So they aren't exactly happy with their parties' pick, but that's not going to stop them from voting the same way they always have.
I really should have made this blog a while ago, because ever since my dad retired (yeah he doesn't have to work anymore- weird) he spends so much time watching CSPAN, CNN, etc. and we talk about it a lot. My dad is voting for Obama, and he is probably more liberal than I am on issues. And my "conservative" roommate and I literally talk about it everyday. One of us will see something on the news and be like "did you see what so-and-so did today?" I have really never talked about politics so much in my life, but we just like talking about it to each other because we don't agree, but we definitely don't get offended either. Alright, so one of her arguments for not voting for Obama is, he did drugs in his teen years. First, I know that's not exactly a quality to win some one over, but honestly, there are so many presidents we've had who are borderline alcoholics, cough George W. Bush, that if that is your reason for not voting for him, it is a pretty weak one. Obama explained why he did drugs. He was extremely depressed during that time in his life, and he realizes later how selfish it was of him to do. My roommate, then goes on to say, "well drugs really mess with your brain and you can make really bad judgments because of it." Pretty sure I am very comfortable with Obama's judgment so far. He has proven to make coherent decisions and it's obvious it is backed up from true intellegence. The drugs obviously couldn't have affected his head too much if he got into frickin Columbia Law School. And I was like, well I think being tortured in a POW camp can definitely mess with some ones mind too! And to be honest, John McCain showed the poorest of judgment when he CHEATED on his wife. People talk about how immoral Clinton is for doing this in the White House. Yeah, that is really wrong, but Republicans have just overlooked McCain's infidelity. And we are ELECTING some one, Clinton was already in office, had already done good for our country in the past and had established himself as a fairly effective leader. He may have questionable morals, but at least he got things done and was successful at his job. The difference is, McCain is trying to make himself out to be this honorable war veteran, yeah we appreciate that, but you might want to take out the word "honorable" because cheating on your wife really isn't.
I feel like Christians are always pressured into voting for the conservative right, and this election really annoys me, because most Christians are voting McCain when he is NOT conservative. He is a moderate Republican and not particularly religious. People blow the issue of abortion into this controversial issue, and believe me, it is, but it is only controversial because it is complicated. If you are Christian, when did Jesus ever talk about abortion in the Bible? Oh yeah He didn't. It isn't because it wasn't around back then, because it was. He has wisdom on every moral issue known to man, but chose not to talk about abortion in particular. Probably because the woman should decide for herself. I could never ever get an abortion, that's just me. And I have a blog about this kind of topic from probably 1 or so years ago. I wrote a research paper on it explaining my rationale on why I could never have one and the reasons it is wrong. But honestly I kind of agree with the whole- Against abortion? Don't have one. type attitude. However, I DO believe in regulating unethical issues like abortion, under certain circumstances. This abortion show on Oprah changed my life. Really. There was this clearly physically malformed woman talking about how she was the product of incest and rape. Her mother was raped by her own dad. Her father is the same person as her grandfather. Her mother thought about aborting her, but changed her mind for whatever reason. And their child, who is now an adult, said, "no matter how many health problems I have, no matter what people's attitudes are once they find out why I am deformed, I am thankful to be alive." I also, found this really good quote:
If it isn't a baby, then you aren't pregnant, so what are you aborting?
Here's another quote: I am not saying I think it's true 100% for all people, but it's: Republicans are against abortion until their daughters need one, Democrats are pro-choice until their daughter wants one. ~Grace McGarvie
Whatever your views on this issue, whatever your political party, our whole goal should be to reduce the numbers of abortions. So the question is, what is the best way to go about this?
Anyway, all that explanation is just to say, it really annoys me when Christians make Pro-Choice people out to be these horrible immoral people, when the issue is much more complicated than what they make it out to be. So for me, personally, I am not focusing on abortion as an issue in this campaign, that is why if Obama is pro-life or pro-choice I would still vote for him. And you already read why… it is complicated, and to me just less of an issue than people make it out to be. People that really want abortions will get them no matter if they are illegal or not.
ANYways—speaking of judgment, Sarah Palin's really scares me. As soon as McCain announced her as his running mate, everyone went crazy over her (probably because she's a milf), and congratulations John McCain, that's probably the best decision you've made in your life. Because she's extremely conservative and will win over evangelicals. She has said, and I quote, "This is God's war." What scares me is that she has convinced herself that fighting in Iraq is literally "God's will." Alright, let's decide to go start a war, then throw the God card in there to back up why what we did was moral, after we did it. If she really believes that, I have to question her sanity. Because that is just the type of rationale the woman who drowned her kids in the bathtub and said "God told me to do it" had. Seriously that is scary thinking. If she really understood the Bible, she would know Jesus is the bearer of PEACE- it never instructs us to start wars, especially when they are unjust. Youtube "Matt Damon Rips Sarah Palin" it is hilarious and makes me like him. I know, its Hollywood. And don't look to them for any advice other than what the best jeans brand is, but this guy has a point. I think a few of them do have good heads on their shoulders and Matt's one of the few who knows what he's talking about. Also youtube, "Sarah Palin Witchcraft" There is a really bizarre video of her at church surrounded by guys praying for her to stay away from any type of "witchery." Strange stuff.

THIS IS AN "ADD-ON" TO THIS BLOG:

I posted a political note on facebook (bad idea ;) ) And I called it "Summary of the VP debate"

This was supposed to be a "light-hearted" sum-up, and no way intended to spark a debate. All i said was:

"Joe Biden: Down to business, tells it like it is.

Sarah Palin: political motto- when in doubt, turn on the folksy charm!! Nice WINK Sar!

Any opinions welcome!"

Ok, when I said that, I thought people would assume I did not want a debate going on via facebook.

The first comment(er) got it: He is a liberitarian so I already knew the nature of his political views (not in line with mine) BUT, he at least stuck with the once again "nature" of the note!!! He said:

"Joe Biden: Down to business, tells it like it is, in a bizarre parallel universe."

I personally thought this was funny, and definitely his personality, so I was just going to say: lol, and ask for an example.

THEN some one left an obviously disagreeable comment, and it was definitely more serious than the other. She claims sarah palin was "right on the money" but leaves no evidence of why. in addition she made some ridiculous claims. I was about to reply to it, but just decided to delete it. I am really not in the mood (ever) to go disagreeing with anyone- especially on facebook. And when i see notes of my friends who I respectfully disgaree with, i leave it alone. The ONLY time i respond is when I agree, because if you dont agree, thats just rude. (if you are SERIOUS like that one comment was). So, that being said, this WAS going to be my response:

no one will be able to convince me that joe biden uses half truths and sarah palin does not. so that point is less than valid. (Have you not seen McCain’s ad inferring Obama is just like socialites Paris and Britney?!?! Oh that’s SO TRUE!!!! You want to vote for someone who makes claims that a 4 year old would be able to tell is a lie?!)
sarah palin is "truly after the best interests of the people" as opposed to joe biden who isnt? I am skeptical of anyone who has to make such a show of this quality and say “I have good intentions,” over and over in order to gain support. I appreciate Joe Biden’s modest approach.
I also do not see how sarah palin is "not advocating the best interests of a single social class." If you are implying Obama/Biden only have the best interests of the middle class (which makes up more than 50%), it is argued (using your logic) that McCain/Palin only have the best interests of the upper class (which makes up 5%). This is not true, however, because their differences lie in ECONOMIC STRATEGIES, not in who has the most interest in the American people. I don't doubt EITHER parties’ motives.
I also dont think some one can be "right on the money" when they do not even answer the question given to them.

(you had to have seen the original comment, and debate, but it pretty much showed how ridiculous it was to post)

Alright back to the original blog--

I just feel like people focus on all Obamas negatives and all of the so-called negatives he has are irrelevant to what kind of leader he would be. Like his name. And the fact that his father was Muslim. Well Obama is a baptized Christian who has raised his family the same. And what's in a name anyway? Bush has a "name" and it didn't get us very far. We need change. McCain represents the old ideas of D.C. that haven't worked these past 8 years. I do not necessarily think he will be "another Bush." He can't be. We can honestly only go up from here, we're on the brink of economic depression. So he may be an "improvement" but not what our country needs. I agree with Obama on the most important issues facing our country right now: the WAR and the ECONOMY. Not to mention, his character throughout this entire campaign has really impressed me. He has chosen to lead an honorable campaign by choosing to stay out of personal matters, telling the media, "family of nominees should be off limits," in response to the media covering Sarah Palin's daughter's teen pregnancy. Let me remind you, McCain is the one running those ads accusing Obama of having a "celeb" personality. McCain, you just come off a miserable old man who's jealous of Obama's charisma and ability to have such a following. Do you think the American people are so stupid to believe Obama shares any characteristics those two socialites (Britney and Paris) do? That's a pretty pathetic attempt, and once again exposes McCain's truth about his "honorable" personality. I loved Obamas response to those ads. "We are in one of the most important campaigns in the world, and McCain is talking about Britney Spears and Paris Hilton." Seriously…
How some one gets "to the top" shows what kind of person they truly are. It is obvious McCain will do whatever it takes to get there. The impression I get from Obama is hope and the genuine desire to improve this country, which I can tell he has such a passion for.(Quit obsessing over the fact he didn't put his hand over his heart ONCE. He was standing at attention, that in no way reflects his patriotism). My cousin who works in D.C. on Capitol Hill has actually met Obama and shook his hand. I honestly have no idea what my cousins political beliefs are, its just never come up. His mom is Republican, but he is working for a Democratic Senator, Mary Landrieu. Well, anyway, his initial job for the office was giving tours of the White House (fun, I know!). And one day, Obama was walking through with a team of his staff. My cousin just said "It is an incredible honor to meet you." And shook his hand. My cousin said his eyes were piercing, as if they could see into his soul in a really heartfelt way, and he said, "Wow, I really appreciate that." lol I know this is silly, but I just love stories like this, because it shows that they are genuinely touched by people. (I'm sure McCain has personal stories like this too. If you know any, tell me. This is the only one I know of and it happens to be about Barack). People accuse Obama of being an "elitist." Uhh maybe you are confusing it with INTELLIGENCE! What is an elitist? Oh maybe it's some one who doesn't even know how many houses they own. Okay I will forgive Mac for this, he can't help that his wife is filthy rich. But he can help his response when some one asked him how many he owned. "Oh I will have to have my campaign get back to you on that." Might as well have said, sorry, you know I have people that do that for me. (yeah if that's not an elitist attitude I don't know what is). Obama is really one of us. Yeah, he made good money as a lawyer, and now as a Senator. But he earned it all, he didn't just marry into it. What I admire about him the most, is when I found out where he took his wife, Michelle, on one of their first dates. This time in his life, he had a law degree and all, but was choosing to work as a community organizer. I think that is honorable and it pisses me off that Republicans scoff and make sarcastic remarks at his efforts. So what I just love is how CNN did a McCain Revealed and Obama Revealed documentary on the two candidates. I learned from watching Obama's that he and Michelle, on one of their dates, volunteered at a community service center- as one of their dates! How much more HEART could ask for in a candidate?!? Seriously… that won me over. I am confident in Barack "Hussein" Obama, and am so ready to vote in November! Any reactions you have to this blog can be emailed to: mkaci05@hotmail.com. OR facebook me. I would love to hear your opinions having to do with anything I brought up on this blog as well as any other points you have concerning this campaign.

Alright fall of 2008 is officially under way, and I can already tell by what has happened the first week that this year is going to be "interesting"! I have like a friend/familiar face in almost all my classes, which i definitely like. My parents actually know and/or work with the majority of my profs- and im not sure if i like that! ; ) But, the first week of classes were full with so many stories. I just have really interesting kind of bizarre profs to say the least. Well my very first class, 9 am on MWF, is taught by Mitsi Z. (her last name is really long). And the whole class the first day was just us going around the room and introducing ourselves. After everyone said their "interesting" tid bit about themselves, she would usually comment about it, or have some story to go along with what they said. For example, this one girl said she had "sung at a Miss America" pageant. So after this our prof said, "well I usually dnt tell many people this, but... you are looking at the Miss --- (some county) of 1991!! I was in Miss America!" lol I thought this was hillarious because she totally fits that type. My dad told me before going to that class that shes really perky, but also very naive. He also said i would like her, but you will see later why shes naive. So we make our way to the back of the room, and we have 3 black girl basketball players in our class. Immediately when they said their names, i knew who they were. My parents and i try to go to quite a few of the Lady Raider bball games to support Marsha Sharp, who my mom really respects. Shes known to be very professional, and has a really great legacy in college basketball... actually, i think we just go to the lady raiders because my mom really dislikes bobby knight! ; ) ... anyway, I knew these girls played for our school, and their interesting fact was "favorite sport is basketball"...none of them ever said they played for Tech, but im pretty sure people in our class knew they played. And anyway, most faculty at least should know! Anyway, after they introduced themselves, she just looks at them, and in her perky (imagine beauty queen) voice says, "OKAY!" and then immediately looks at the next person. ahaha i was like...uhhh interesting. So THEN, we get to LA Reed, alright im pretty sure everyone in our class knew who this was. Hes not as big as like the quarter back, but he is WELL-known! So we get to him, and he says, "Hi, Im LA Reed..." and our prof goes, "oh, like L-A?!" and hes just like, "yeah..." and Mitsi says, "Oh, so you just go by your initials, like L-A?!" and he goes, "yeah..." ahahaha i thought this was so funny. And as you can see, NAIVE! shes soo naive about some things. She also claims making tests for her classes take YEARS of her life! She was like "Please take my tests seriously, because those are days that i spend taking the time to make them, that i could be with family, or spending time with my husband...actually thats like DAYS of my life i spend on it. I am not complaining or anything, i know its part of my job. But please.." Lets just exaggerate a little more! haha shes just so ridiculous you cant help but like her.
Alright, so thats Mitsi's class. Now, the other one is a "doosey" Our instructor is..Jan. The first day of class shes all like bouncing off the walls and told us "Yes I was a member of the Goin band from Raiderland, thats my claim to fame!" She said this at least 3 times. I'm like alright, we get that you have a lot of school spirit. Ok, so then, she just makes quite an "impression." Shes just like, "I dont understand peoples attitudes today...all this apathy! I just dont get it! I mean, i go out of my way to compliment people. And its not because im trying to get in good with them. I just enjoy making people feel good. So all this "whatever attitude" (and she holds up the whatever sign with her hands)...I dont get that!" haha so im sort of thinking, alright she could be a tad overlyzealous, but she could be a cool teacher. Alright so the next time we meet for class. I am the FIRST one in there. I didnt mean to be, it just happened i got there earlier than i thought. So i was just asking her what we were going to do today. And she was like "ohh we are watching a movie, and yada yada yada... then she goes, did you bring your book?" I was like, "Actually, no i didnt.'' And she was like "well! you really need to bring that every day! We are getting our moneys worth in here! " And just giving me a lecture on me not having my book. (Let me add we didnt even use it that day. AND she didnt ask anyone else if they had theirs. I am almost sure more than half the class didnt...) Anyway, before class started, she was up at the front talking with a deaf girl. We have one deaf girl in our class who has 2 translators that come to class with her. She is very very pretty. Anyway, my instructor is just explaining to this girl, that we are watching a movie today, and she said, "if you need to you can bring it home with you over the weekend. I know it might be kind of hard to watch the movie AND the interpreter at the same time." So the translator is signing to her. And she signs back, and says, "alright, well i will just watch it in class, and if i need to bring it home i will let you know." THEN-- my instructor just holds up the "W" aka "whatever" AHAHAHA Whhhhhat!!! That is so rude! She may have been just doing that cause she doesnt know sign language. But its like, ok did you not tell us the other day you "dont get that kind of attitude??!" this woman is so crazy.. alright so today, the 3rd day of class. I walk in, and class is just about to start. And she goes, "ohh you bring your book today!" and i said, "yes i did, just for you!" ; ) and she said, "now dont go writing on the evaluation that i picked on you!" OMG-- its like seriously, if you think i can write something like that on the evaluation, you PROB shouldnt be doing it!!!! Shes so weird! my mom was like she sounds like a nervous nancy... ok so then when im leaving, shes standing by the door. And shes like "bye meredith!" And i just said bye. And she goes, "O, cute shoes!" and i was like "thanks!" -- "whered you get them, oh i love those!"...''oh TJ MAXX" ---"oh they are way cute!" haha alright Jan way to butter me up. So yeah, i will definitely not be bored in those classes.

Wow it has been forever since I have looked at this blog. I just want to say if you are reading this, and you read the other posts, take them with a grain of salt, because I have changed so much since a lot of these. Don’t get me wrong, some seemingly immature inside jokes will always be funny. :) I mainly mean the philosophical posts, I had some views that looking back on it were probably not very healthy. That’s what I mean by changed. Anyway I just thought I would update this a little. I am now going to school at Texas Tech, not A&M…it was my parents decision, not mine. I would probably still be living in college station if I had the choice, but I do like at Tech for different reasons. For example I got a 4.0 last semester, all A+s to be exact! AND I actually love my roomates, we are really close and its so nice to have that for a change. We occasionally disagree, of course about politics, but that’s really it. And we both kinda like hearing the other side of politics so its not like a bad thing. But I have to say, in all my life I have never had so much DRAMA! Its not about anyone in Lubbock, its my old friends from college station, which is really weird. I am not going to go into detail about what happened because its basically a bunch of gossip. But a friend of mine is basically no longer my friend anymore. And that’s always sad. But you know this isnt my first friend to loose. I’ve gone through them, which I think is normal to anyone. I mean just watching “The Hills’ would tell you that! Haha…. But basically the lesson I have learned from this is I really don’t look up to anyone. We’re all humans that have flaws. That supposed friend of mine let me down and it was beyond hurtful what she did to me. Everyone lets you down. I just have learned that by growing up, its not supposed to sound jaded. That’s just life. Anyway, the past has already happened, let me tell you about the present. :) I have been traveling soo much, which I love! This summer I got to go to Boise Idaho to visit my cousin who’s one of the most entertaining people to be around! He is so funny…never a dull moment! And it was so nice because a big group of my family got to come for it- about 10 people! We went to this Japanese restaurant the first night and it was so good. I love places like that, at the end they toss you food and you are supposed to catch it in your mouth. I finally got the shrimp on the 2nd try! Boise is just so naturally pretty, the scenery is amazing. It’s mountanous, which I expected, but I didn’t realize how green it would be and there are like more than one river going through Boise. My dad and I biked on a bike path right along one of the rivers and it was so beautiful. My dad says it was one of the best and prettiest rides he’s been on and he’s biked all over. Boise has a lot to do as well…like theres this great downtown we spent most of our time. We ate at PF Changs one night, went and saw Ironman one night, which was really good. They have great shopping like Macy’s, Black and White store, Urban Outfitters and Anthroplopgie. O and my FAV! They have a pita pit!!! Ahhh I was happy! I haven’t had that in like a year…I def. ate there twice during our visit. My favorite thing we did was take a train ride in the moutains along one of the rivers. We got tha caboose! J and there were refreshments and nice chairs and of course a great view. So we really enjoyed our visit! I loved seeing my aunt because I havent seen her in so long (since the divorce), and shes so much fun to talk to, she was so sweet she got our whole family gifts for coming to visit Carson. Ok so next visit was to NOLA! One of my favs! We had to go apartment hunting for my sister who is…starting law school in the fall!! (at Tulane) The one we ended up getting costs as much as my parents house now…um yeah, I was kinda like whatever its yalls money… they claim they would do the same for me, so we will see about that if I pick a nursing school in say…New York city! Haha But we spent more time with family on the northside of the lake more than anything. I loved the day I got to spend with my dads cousin Carolyn and her son. We went to Francos, this super nice gym in Mandeville. They have a water and air resitant weight room which I loved, it seemed easier than weights but they claim its just as effective. Then we had lunch, there at the gym. Did I mention they have a restaurant and starbucks there?? So…I got this tiny (overpriced) like scoop of macaroni and a strawberry smoothie. Then collin and I hit the tennis courts! We were a pretty good match for each other! Haha we at least had a pretty good volley going a few times. It was SO frickin humid and hot though. We were playing in the heat of the day so our match didn’t last long. Later that day I went to my Aunt Medas and she wanted to go shopping. Earlier in the trip we went to Trey Yeun to celebrate both my uncle and cousins (his son) birthday. My aunt Meda got my uncle who’s a DA a Bill O’reily book. Haha that didn’t go over too well. He said something like “I cant believe how annoying this guy is..” So she felt kinda bad and thought she needed to give them both another gift. So we went to this department store. WOW that was an adventure. Well of course we stopped and talked to everyone Meda knew in the store, and I even met a family member for the first time! But the thing about Aunt Meda is, she was supposed to have died a long time ago. She, nor anyone else, thought she would be alive this long. WE LOVE HER of course! But shes just had so many health problems she kinda already spent her money. So she probably shouldn’t be buying all these gifts when she didn’t need to. But anyway, I go with her, pick the gifts out, then we leave the check out counter, and go ALL OVER the store. She realizes she doesn’t have her bag anymore. And shes like “oh doll go back to that check out counter and pick the gifts up!” I was just thinking how that did not sound right…and of course it wasn’t there. So we look ALL over the store. Some one could have easily stolen it. We were about to leave when there was ONE place we didn’t look and it was there. Ok so we got the gifts and left. Then shes like “I’m thirsty, are you?” And I was like, yeah I guess I could use a refreshment or something. So she goes to WENDYS and gets 2 frosties!!! Haha if you know my aunt that’s just how she is…she cooks the most fattening foods for like the whole town…shes so funny. “Our favorite fairy godmother” is what we call her. Ok SOOO, the last place I’ve been to this summer (oh yeah besides to visit my grandparents!) was to Dallas/Ft Worth to visit Ashley! We had so much fun, our relationship is never strained or anything even though we don’t get to see each other that much, we just pick up right where we left off. So we go out to Mi Cocina for dinner, with my mom. And although mexican food is not exactly on my diet, it was really good…hey I got beans and spinach, not too bad! So anyway as we were walking down the street, this older guy was like “wow yall are like so beautiful, that’s like not normal to be that pretty, that’s so weird!” haha I just laughed and ashley kind of gave him a bad look lol. Ashley says theres a lot of creepers in downtown. We basically spent the night in downtown…went to barnes and noble. Saw the Happening…I thought it was good and so did ashley, but this one person behind us was like, I want my money back! Ashley and I were like the only ones scared in the whole theatre. These black ladies were laughing at us when we’d yell. And we went shopping, went out to eat etc. I only stayed there 2 days, which that’s how long it took to get caught up on both of our lives! So soon…like 2 days, my friend erins coming to visit me for 4th of july! Yay I am so excited J Then I start summer school…and my life will be over. Maybe not but im taking the most you can in the summer. I need to unless I want to be here till 2010! Well that’s all for now! (I really wonder who reads this…so far 3 people have talked to me about it, but I wonder who reads it NOW).. Anyway if you are reading this, hopefully I know you, haha, just let me know whats going on in your life I would love to hear about it! I hate loosing touch with people. Ok so quote of the days gotta be: from Michael Ian Black on botox: "It doesnt make you look young, it just makes you look paralyzed. Have a stroke, its cheaper" lol I thought this was so funny…my kind of sense of humor. Its not like life changing but I love random quotes.
Ok and song of the day: hmm tie between “every breath you take”, the police, “hollywoods not America” by Ferras

I am no philosopher... but Ive wanted to explain just why I say my political views are moderate ...
Right below moderate political views on my profile, I label myself as a Christian... the meaning of that word is so beyond a label, and for me to explain that , it would need to be a whole nother entry so we won't go there with this one... with my understanding, political views are not standards that you hold for just yourself. They are not merely your "moral code" that you hold yourself accountable to. That is between yourself and God. Because i have "moderate" political views, this does not mean i have 'moderate' moral standards, or that I feel as though its ok to deal with a 'moderate' amount of ... whatever (fill in a word)... point is, we all know just because you have "very conservative" or "very liberal" written as your political views, it doesnt mean your lifestyle reflects that. I didn't know if i needed to clarify that, but it's apparently a common misconception.
In fact, I almost joined a facebook group entitled "Honey your not a Conservative, youre a narrow-minded, spoiled, slut." lol I ended up not... it's still funny though. And you know its funny because its true. I know some "very liberal" people who probably practice a more conservitive life than do some "very conservatives." That proves my point.... its not about that.
I can't say right now whether or not I would get into a situation where getting an abortion would be a choice I could make ... I don't want to think about that ... about getting pregnant and not needing/feeling capable of having a baby ... AKA *ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE* I am definitely not planning on getting pregnant anytime in the near future, if u know me, NO NEED TO WORRY , but if i were being completely honest, I cannot say with certainty that this is not a possibility (ok, no one can... no one that is female can...) The world is something we *cant* control...But what I do know is that I would never choose the option of having one. No matter the reason. I can say with assurance I couldn't allow that to happen. I hate that abortion happens. I hate there's even that availible to people. I hate that even being an option. This example isn't meant to say whether abortion should be legalized. In fact, i will just talk about it as some one wanting to get an abortion, so then it doesn't have to be an issue of legality. Point is ... we shouldn't choose what some one can or can't do. The government should have laws set up with the goal of creating a safe and just environment where people can be free and equal but at the same time not so “free” that if they had the desire to kill some one, they would get away with it. That's the point of laws! The reason why I myself would never have an abortion is based on my faith, but I can't tell other people they “shouldnt” want an abortion either ... they need to be able to choose for themselves. After Adam and Eve, civilization lived/lives in a world full of choices that affects other people, for good or bad. God has pretty well spelled out what is sinful and not. What would be good to do, and what could be harmful. What bring glory to him and what doesn't. We shouldn't be forced to obey God. And God doesn't force us! It is a decision we make! And litterally thank God for that! That we come to know him because we want to. So we should keep the environment God intended for us to have... one where we are free to make the right decision IF WE WANT TO.
People's moral standards is their own deal. I try to hold myself to a pretty high standard, but let's face it, I don't always meet that... in comes religion, but once again can't go there right now ... and this is way too long anyways!
In a perfect world I would love for everyone's values to be very conservative. Wouldn't we all love that? Every where you go you would meet people with nice family values ... but why do we have security systems in stores? why lock your car when you just go to the store just for a second? why? Because WE DON'T ... we don't live in a perfect world ... people with the best intent will never be perfect ... people mess up, and people do things for bad reasons too. It happens. So should we just accept all of the happenings in the world and be ok with it? How is that realistic either?
Do you see the problem? We're being pulled in constant directions... to do what is right, and to hold people accountable, but at the same time be realistic. Know that it's inevitable for people (and YES YOU) to mess up and unfortunately people will intentionally as well ... but we should still love them and show them what IS "right" ... you do this not by turning up our noses and letting them know what they did was wrong, which most humans do have a sense of conciousness and you'll be surprised that they do also feel guilt! (And yes people who aren't necessarily religious have the ability to feel guilt too.....duh)We show them, by embracing their mistake, and their human-ness.
One more thing about religion... I don't care what some one has done to you, how they make you feel, or whatever, we are all called as Christians to love one another. This doesnt mean you have to be friends with them. Maybe you were friends, and now youre not. You don't have to be friends with some one to show them love. We are called to show love to any one we come in contact with (neighbor love)... I don't know the definition of love, but it's not telling some one what horrible thing they did, after they did it, and expecting them to learn from it. It is showing that person how much you care for them, and doing whatever it takes to help her or him out of the rut theyre in.
OK SOOOO I am a MODERATE and a CHRISTIAN and YES the two can coexist!!! This is not the same as Moderately Christian... like a half way Christian!! Nooo it's very different than that and hopefully now you understand why! Yep thats all...
Im gonna end with a quote from my wise pops! He's the smartest guy I know.... “Everything in moderation except moderation, you can never have too much moderation!” He's so smart! And no I'm not like some who just do what theyre parents do, and that's where they get their political views. I actually thought about them. And anyway my dad's probably more liberal than me! Haha Not really, maybe...

I thought this was cool!! I know its kinda shallow to care so much about what celeb you look like, but you know youre curious too!

Though I dont really know how accurate this thing is if Jessica Simpson and and Angelina jolie look that much alike, oh wells! Im glad some one thinks i look like them haha

I just realized some pet peeves of mine, that have resurfaced only till recently!! One of them happened this past weekend.. Zach Schae. came in from Galveston..and we go out to Cotton Patch to get some good country cookin! We are seated and our waitress seemed nice at first..but she was a lil pushy to get our order! We ignored that, but then when I told her I knew what I wanted she goes "ok baby..what do YOU want" uggh I absolutely HATE when some one your OWN age calls you baby sweetie, hunny , etc! If a girl says it, it's condescending. Like "oh hey sweetie, since i'm better than you, Im gonna call you sweetie and make you feel like youre 2." If a guy said that I'd be weirded out. If an OLD man called me that I would be majorly creeped out. The ONLY and i reapeat only people who can call me that is my mom, and really cute old ladies. So as the night progressed, she kept saying it!! I asked her if we could have honey for our bread..and of course she goes sure thing baby! ughh I know it sounds picky to have that many specifications of who can and can't call you pet names, but it makes sense. Oh yeah, if youre new to my family and I just met you, don't call me baby either. haha.
New story..tonight me and Ariel went to the Rec.. we got in a good work out and after we sat in her car for a while. We were talking when all of a sudden this honda pulls into the spot to the right of us. The girl opens her door right into ariel's montero sport..I kind of give the girl a look just to let her know I saw her and she made this weird noise and left!! So we ignored it, go back to our converstation. Then on the left of us this car full of people get out and not one but 2 doors from that car hit her OTHERside!! Ariel opened her door this time and said you might wanna be careful when you open your door! And they just walk off. We were soooo peeved! 3 hits in one night WHILE we were in the car! So we write a lil note expressing our dilema w/ rude, careless people! On each car that hit us we wrote this:

To: the person that hit our car
All people make mistakes, but mature people take responsiblity for it! (and don't just walk off)
You might want to be more careful next time you park like a centimeter away from another car and open your door like no one is remotely near you. If you do hit some one, you might want to act like you care. If this happened while we were in the car, I dont want to know what would have happened if we weren't. Take responsibilty like a big person when you cause damage to some one's property.
--Person whose car you hit

I think that extremely fair!! There was no damage, but seriously they acted like nothing happened even though when they hit, they looked up like oh yeah, i just did that. People are so selfish right now its so aggirvating!!

Ok so this blog is kinda a downer, but those are just coincidences that have happened lately, my next one will be a little happier!!

Quote of the day: "Carry out a random act of kindness, with no expectation of reward, safe in the knowledge that one day someone might do the same for you." -Princess Diana
Song of the day: L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E ..yes it's ashlee simpson..the song it catchy I have to admit.

I know I already did a blog today..but I am on a roll and figured I might as well share another funny story. (This is like a record for me, being this good about making blogs!)

So I am taking English from blinn, and anyone he has taken classes from there knows the super freaks that go there, to put it nice ly! lol, there are some interesting people! The course itself isn’t bad, but lately we had quite a few papers due back to back. And so on this particular Wednesday, we had a paper due, and when we turn it in (or the minority of people who show up and do assignments turn it in), he says “oh by the way the term paper isn’t due today, I was nice and pushed it back until after thanksgiving.” Ummm after I heard that I was a little leary about what was going on! I was on top of most things in that class, but I never even thought about the term paper being due, since it IS indeed a term paper, I assumed it would be due closer to the end of the semester. Apparently he thought he was being nice by NOT assigning 2 papers on one day. Yes, that was SO generous of you Mr. Snow but I just assumed there would never be two papers due at once!

So anyways, I was thinking how I was going to even get ANYTHING done over thanksgiving..I knew I was going to be gone the whole time and never by a computer. This isn’t just an essay you can throw together at last minute. Like he wanted 10 “scholarly” sources, whatever that means, and 2000+ words. So I pleaded with him “Mr Snow, I really appreciate you moving the deadline back, but for some people who don’t have acess to a computer, it doesn’t help very much” I tried to say it as nice as I could…cause I always hate when people make up excuses. But I was pretty desperate and figured I might as well try. And he was like “well then you can just hand it in this week!” He was kidding, but not saying this to him, I was like I have a LOT of other things to turn in this week………..

**SOHERE’s the zinger of the story:

In the most obnoxious, condescending voice imagineable, a girl from the back of the class goes “Well WELCOME to COLLEGGGGE!!!”
-I could NOT believe some one was actually saying what I heard.
-This girl doesn’t say two words to me all semester and then today of all days she pipes up from the back and says “welcome to college” in the whiniest voice ever..
-I was like “Excuse me? Who’s side are you on?”
-What I really wanted to say was “sweetie, this isn’t COLLEGE this is blinn..and you might what to keep your insignificant biased opinion to yourself because I’m pretty sure everyone else in the class would love an extension.”

But Mr. Snow DID let us just turn in a rough draft the next Monday and I was so happy!! We were lucky little mrs. Welcome to college didn’t ruin it for people.
So that Monday I was looking forward to seeing that girl’s (I still don’t know her name) 10 page term paper completely finished since she apparently didn’t need the deadline and didn’t want others to have one. She shows up to class bragging that her boyfriends mom did the whole thing, yet, oh no, she only had 6 pages!!
I was soo tempted to be like “aww do you need that extension now sweetie?!” haha I refrained but she does continue to shoot evil glares my way from time to time.
People like that you just have to laugh with/at because it’s too dumb to take seriously!!

apparently College is very time consuming—which is obvious since I haven’t written a blog in forever and a day!! Too much has happened to really explain. BUT, i'll Just sum up the prominent aspects!! (yes, college is broadening my vocab can ya tell?!)..like I do in all my other ones.

Umm college is definitely different than I was expecting..in both good and bad ways. So far I’ve dropped out of a class which was like the hardest thing for me to do. Because I felt like I was quitting or giving up. But it was really for the best. I would have had like 6 impossible finals and there would be NO way I could be “successful” in my studies with a load like that my first semester. The class was biology, and it was hell..not the subject. I like the subject..my prof was psycho. I can’t completely blame it on him, but 95 % was him. The other was the reading load, combined with my other 13 hours, combined with it just being a hard subject. But this guy could not teach for anything. I was really thinking about tape recording him and letting my parents listen to him and see if they could understand anything. Like in class, he will completely turn his back away towards us, and mumble so low. And write all this junk jumbled up on the board that makes absolutely nothing to me. It was really absurd.
To top it off he had this horrible monotoned voice. Plus I had a little personal problem with him. First day of class he says “I don’t want to hear anything about God and him creating the universe. Keep your little ideas to yourself. This is biology, not religion 101. Keep your beliefs at the door.” Ok first of all no one said anything to make him bring that up, so he really just needs to back off that subject lol. He went on to say that he’s received many “dirty hate letters” under his door, and he said to just bring any other ones on. That just made me laugh But I was just put in an awkward position I because he basically bashed the majority of people in the rooms’ beliefs, and said we had no right to express them. He can teach any theory, I have no problem with that but leave your opinion out of it, I could care less what you do or don’t believe (in the class room environment anyway).

So the funniest thing about him is that he thinks we evolved from trees..yeah, I would love to know how we, ancestors of the trees, learned to talk!! Honestly this guy graduated from Berkley!! Cmon..Theeenn, a few weeks later he said everytime we get goosebumps that’s our body inating back to when we were monkeys. And pushing our fur up out of our skin!

But basically I am just happy im outta there!! I’m taking it next semester at A&M from a real professor, and hopefully they wont start talking about our monkey furr coming out of our skin.

So, enough of school…oh, random story! Ashley and I went to souper salad, our favorite dinner date place! And we stocked up on salad, and bread, and soup. And after it all we go get the “healthy” yogurt..and Ashley being blonde (haha not saying im not) pretty much like breaks the machine and all this ice cream came pouring out, overflowing onto the floor…I felt really bad for the woman behind us!! She thought we were psycho. And the rest of the restaurant im sure did too, since we attracted more attention to ourselves by laughing hysterically.!! So anyway yes college is great and now I have to go study up for those joyous FINALS! Peace to tha out!!!
Song of the day: “Gold digger” Kanye! The message isn’t good but the song is!!
Quote of the day: “you had me from howdy” haha some girl’s shirt, thought it was funny, although I didn’t see her saying howdy to anyone, or anyone saying it to her…

Ok so ONCE again...SO many people are demanding another blog..well A person but it still counts. And so i figured i would do a little sumation of the summer. Let's see i arrived in Lubbock the day after graduation so basically ive been here for eternity and at first i seriously thought i would die from being so bored. Like i havent seen my parents all year or whatever, but really after the first week being here i felt pretty caught up!! I love em and all and im glad i get to see them now..but seriously its been ALL summer. But i did meet some cute guys at church. And for the most part ive been hanging out with Kandace. She just graduated too, and shes going to Tech next year. Shes actually from Colorado, but her grandparents live here and they have this reALLY nice pool so i go and lay out over there a lot.

but THANKfully ashley came and stayed with me a week! I was so happy!!!! WE had so much fun..so many things happened like everyday. For example, getting trapped in a dimly lit, sketchy (love that word!) hastings parking lot at 12;30 am by this hispanic stalker guy. he completely blocked the exit with his car and I was so close to hitting him. I braked really hard and Ashley and i both look at each other and scram(past of scream). And being the stalker that he is..stares us down like pieces of meat. And finally when I realize i need to reverse (after being so traumatized) he follows us out the other way...tailgaitng us for a mile down the road. My house was only like 2 blocks away but i knew i couldnt go home b/c then he would know where i live!! (those lifetime movies taught me well ;-]) I dont know how but we lost him...WOW what a relief that was the scariest thing ever. I could tell many other weird eventful stories...cause trust me we had em!! The one i like best is going to texas water rampage..and going to get one tube to share (cause they were 3 bucks each) But since it was a guy lifeguard he gave us both one FREE..wahoo being a girl def has its perks! ;)

So the next week..my cousin Carsony Balony comes in. None of my friends loved me enough to come up and go to the Kelly Clarkson concert :'( But I knew carson would pull threw, hes like obsessed. PLUS hes never been to a concert!! I couldnt believe it. KELLY was AMAZING! I liked her OK before her recent stuff. Like i thought she was talented- i just didnt like her songs. But wow she can sing and she sounds so much better in person than on her CD if thats possible. I like how she actually sings her songs..thats definitely something you want when you pay 50 bucks to hear some one in concert. And wow Graham Colton band is so amazing too. Everyone should check them out www.grahamcoltonband.com Theyre up and coming artists so support them cause theyre actually talented. I bought their Cd after the concert and they were signing them outside. I wanted a pic with them SOO bad- the lead singer is a hunk! But Carsoni was being impatient and didnt wanna wait in line.
So later that week we went to Joyland (this Po-dunk amusement park) and lemme tell ya it was NOT very joyous. I went on this water ride and got completely soaked..then carson knocked my shoe off on one of those ski lift things so i had to walk across that whole park with one shoe on to get it!! little punk haha jk. And so just as we are leaving at like 10pm we walk to the car and i see this guy with his hood up..so you know you HAVE to ask if he needs help. And he was like "i could use some plyers" SO i was like plyers...plyers.. I had this roadside kit my grandpa gave me that i never opened. But I proceed to look for the plyers he needs and I reach for what appears to be plyers. I said "OH here they are! But why does these have a rope connected to them???" He said "those are jumper cables!!" HAHA wow i think that could have been my dumbest blonde moment ever! Eventually he gets it fixed- it took him half a freakin hour..Guess thats the price you pay for being a good Samaritan!

So now I am preparing for college and all that jazz. I have 17 hours!! I might drop a class..who knows. But the best thing is that i found a place to live! it's a duplex and i'll be living with to other junior girls. I don't know them, but i think it will be good to branch out! Theyre in the AFC..thats about all i know. Now i am just getting all my room stuff planned out. Which is kinda fun.
OMG and the best thing i found out today was that Julie and I have a class TOGETHER!!! I could not believe it..Intro to Psych has SO many classes..the fact that we would get the same day, same time, same room is just INSANE. God LOVES us!! Haha that class doesnt know what theyre gettin into! If anything happens like last year they'll be in for a wild ride.
Now that i wrote like every detail. i will leave with some parting thoughts..
Quote of the day: "Pain is invetiable, suffering is optional"
Song of the day: "We belong together" Mariah!! you know you like it toooo ;)

and so high school is officially over..never though id be saying that. even though i will probably look back and realize that high school was probably my least favorite "era", part of me will actually miss certain aspects. now im completely too old to wrap houses and get away with it. i guess i technically could still wrap a house but thatd be lame. (especially cause id be 18 and could actually spend some jail time- ha). i will miss knowing pretty much everyone (or at least having familiarity)...or will i miss that??
i will totally miss mr. slovaks gvmt. class, learning nothing in psychology, being able to change topics to get out of having to take notes (wow so many teachers were like that, esp. mrs. barrs!). pep rallies and football games to an extent. eating mint oreos with cheez whiz after we said we were gonna eat healthy that night. getting carded for a movie and sneaking in anyways. capturing turtles and setting them free. ;) making weird videos and showing our parents and making them think we are out of control problem children. loosing my credit card twice ( i can still do this in college). dressing up in tacky 1980s beauty queen dresses and caped on make up then going out to the movies and having people ask us if halloween was a little early this year. making the marble slab people think we're litterally high because some random psycho bipolar girl thinks there were angels inside. (Gabriel). parents gone for the weekend..need i say more? "Like omg guys..did yall have a party without me?!?" Dragqueen hermy. lady and slirtson. big nose dude. francessca. anne finch. seeerah ramsey. carsony running around in only white socks and his whitey tighties..wayyy TOO much. haha AWKWARD hand grabbing :-/ flooding the entire floor of a church building with a "daily double" and making it leak down to the first story of the kitchen. "what a log" haha. the pizza accidentally flying down 12 stories and perfectly landing on an umbrella in a restaurant.
I COULD LIST SO MANY THINGS! no joke this list could go on forever, but those were def. some great times. i never cry..didnt cry at graduation..didnt cry at the baclaureatte..but cried the last night i was in CS, for no reason. So that tells me that i AM going to miss things even though i didnt see it possible. Thanks everyone that was in my life, you might not think you had an impact on me, but chances are you did! haha thats incredibly cheesy, but thats seriously what i feel. im a cheeseball. Anyway, good luck to everybody!! I L U guys and im not going to loose touch! call, email, IM whatever!
:_:Quote of the day: "it's not the answer that enlightens, but merely the question."
:_:Song of the day: "Counting blue cars" Dishwalla, gotta love the 90's

So yea I have been completely slacking on the blogs- my lifes been hectic, and not really a good kind of hectic ! This is the last 6 weeks i really have to do anything grade-wise, so ive been bustin my butt trying to raise my gpa. Ya, cause i waited till the last semester of my senior year to realize that im borderline to graduating with honors =/ talk about stressful! And i hate how school takes up so much of my time !! BLAH, but im almost done caring about high school, college is just around the corner, and im PUMPED. except, i would be really pumped if i knew where i was freakin gonna live. I only applied to 2 schools, and im still waiting on one and i know ive gotten in to Tech. But its really hard to make school fun when you see the weirdos we go to school with, Im not saying we have a bad school, but its hard to be happy some days when you have to deal with these under classmen! Like im to the point where i really dont care what people think of me, and its really annoying when your surrounded by little kiddies who care SO much. Its like really, if you think people care..go get a life! haha i sound really mean. Its just frusturating when every other day we deal with a lack of respect from these little kids. Like i was in awe of the seniors, and i at least respected them. Im not really asking them to completely go out of their way to suck up to me, but when people younger than me call me "hunny" or "sweetie"...thats NOT gonna cut it! Ughh

I really have to keep telling myself, just 72 more days! lol yea its still a lot- who knows if im gonna make it

But moving on to more happy things!! Spring breaaak is coming up YEYAAAA BABY.. im really stoked about it even though im not really doing anything outrageously exciting. I'm going to Lousiana and i really have no clue what im doing there- really just spending time with family and probably going to JAZZland, like the cajun version of fiesta texas. Soo it'll be fun cause i will see me dearly loved parents who i havent seen in like MONTHS...well WEEKS.

I have a CALC test tomorrow and then a Tale of 2 cities test after that, so im gonna go work on that...maybe crack a book or two. So PEACE !

Song of the DAY "beautiful world": COLDplay
Quote ofthe DAY-- "irrationally held truths may be more harmful than reasoned errors" quote from a really smart guy...

ok i just ended the WORST day with the funniest thing ever. i called Ash right after school ended and both agreed that today was the worst day ever. So we decided to do what always helps bad days, go get more cafiene than i need and pay for an overpriced tiny drink...at starbucks. All the tables were full but we had to vent about our day so we decided to go sit in her car and talk. Her car was the best seat in town- let me tell ya. Cause anyone who lives in college station knows what crazy freaks are on Texas Ave. and her car was facing it, so we could see everyone at the lights. As we were talking and venting about our day this weird dude popped out from behind a tree! First of all it scared me. And we started watching him and we could NOT help but laugh. I dont usually sit around and make fun of people. But this guy seriously looked like SANTA; NO JOKE! He had luxurious white locks of hair and they were being tossled in the wind. haha And he had a sack full of "toys" or whatever was in his sack. lol. Only his bag was GREEN, not red like santa is usually depicted. THEN we decide to honk at him to be friendly. and he takes it upon himself to come all the way over to her car and tap on the window! (it was REALLLY freaky). And as hes walking off he isnt watching and almost gets run over!!!!!! It was awful but hysterical at the same time!! SO me and ash talk for like hours in her car and she has to go to the bathroom. So we go back in Starbucks and apparently theres some one in the girls bathroom. And theres only like one guy in the whole store, so ashley decides to use the guys bathroom. Im waiting outside when this BIGGGG old dude comes up and bangs on the door and says he has to take a poop. It was really strange! Then ashley comes out and he gives us this weird look lol. It sounds dumb but trust me it made my day. :)

the white christmas

now all the fun holidays are over...and i have the guilt of actually excercising and not eating dessert with every meal. Life is tough NOW! :( Now my life only consists of working out, school, friends, and counting down the days till graduation !! (yea babyyy). Its weird to think that im in my last semester of my last year in high school...perplexing where these years go! I mean i feel like a grandma! No kidding, i have a school reunion some time this year. Its for my elementary school in louisiana. Thats so weird, i feel too young to be having a reunion.

over the break i was with my parents..THE WHOLE time, in the middle of NOWHERE. yeah, sounds like a blast i know. But thats really the only time i get to spend time with them now, so i really did enjoy it. For two days before christmas it snowed like 10 inches, and i was SOO happy. I saw sleet when i was like 5, so this was really cool for me. I built a little retarded snow man.. its really not as easy as it looks! Every time you make snow into a ball it like crumbles. And one time i got it all made, and put a carrot in it, and it all fell down!! But i finally got the hang of it and it was a really cute 1 foot snow man. :)
We went up to my Grandma and Grandaddys house for christmas and caught up with family. Which means talked for hours to elderly people about the high lights of their weeks, which mean going to doctors appts., to water aerobics, and getting their hair done. It actually wasnt THAT bad..i mean that part was, but when i was with my cousins and people less than 60 years old it was def. more entertaining.
After a few days we went back to Lubbock and shopped some, saw a few movies, and did about everything you could do there. I was excited that i got my camera. I put a digital camera on my list, but i didnt really want it that bad and i didnt think my parents would get it for me either. But now that i got it im really happy. I have a printer that hooks up to it and it prints it off directly from the camera. So all in all, my christmas was good.
And to top it off, my bestest friend surprised me at the airport!!
My freakin flight was delayed of course, so i had to stay in houston till 6 (supposed to leave at 3) but they did give me $12 vouchers to get food while i had to stay at the 'port. So that was nice. ANyways, i stepped off the plane and i saw Julie and Gma McCrady :) I was soo happy! They made my night.

Wahooo 2005 is just started, cant wait!!
Song of the day: You were meant for me. Jewel.
Quote of the day: "he probably molested himself when he was younger"...haha im not gonna say who said that one !

LONGEST delay ever to L-TOWN

Because of such HIGH demand, i decided to make another bloggy...it seems like people were just DYING to hear more about my life. So i will fill everyone back in on the high lights. A lot has happened since i wrote last but all these stories seem like they are soo much more fun the day they happened. Let's see......
I went to Lubbock for thanksgiving, you only go there if you have to travel for business or you have relatives there. In my case it was the family thing. I arrived at the Easterwood airport around 545pm (for my 630 flight). This is probably the ONE time in my life i have ever been early for (ok im not that bad, but i have been known to be late for things), so the whole being early thing for an flight that takes litterally 2 seconds to walk thru security really bites as you will see later. So i check in and they inform me that my flight has been delayed till 715. I expected it from the weather reports, so i wasnt too stressed about it. Kaylies mom and I sat down and looked at magazines until it was time to line up for security. It appeared as if i was about to board my flight around 710, so Mrs. H left. We sat down in that waiting room, and waited, and waited some more. And it was like 8 or so before they let us know that our flight has been delayed once again. We waited soo long that I would have been bored out of my mind because all i brought was homework, but fortunately our flight had a lot of funny college students, so i was entertained. A lot people began going up to the front and asking the flight clerks a bunch of questions so i figured i better pester them too. They said that if we left in the next 15 minutes, i could make my connecting flight in Dallas.. if i sprinted. I couldnt fly out the next day because they were completely booked up from thanksgiving.

So my only choice was to fly to Dallas. If i made my connecting flight, thank God. And if not, I would have to spend the night in the Big D. i was not too excited about this idea because i am a 17 year old white girl...the most common victim of rape. They dont call Dallas the Big D for nothing and im sure there are molesters and rapists on every corner. I called my parents and let them know the scoop. My mom let me know that my cousin Jay lives 20 minutes away from the airport, and that if i needed him he could come pick me up. That was a relief, but i just wanted to get to Lubbock at this point. So we FINALLY leave college station at 9:15. My flight for Lubbock was at 8:58. It seems impossible to make, but not for me! I ran my marathon through the shuttle buses and ariport trains and I got to the gate in the nick of time, everyone was lined up. Thank Jesus that that flight was delayed too. So anyway, i got to Lubbock at 2:30 am.

what a trip. I was excited to be "home", but i found out that i had a 10 am doctors appt.So i went straight to bed. I got up the next day, went to the doctor, got my hair cut [and bangs :)] Then we went to some car dealerships for the rest of the day. I test drove a Hyundai Santa Fe, i really liked it. Most importantly my parents liked it too and thats good because they have the doe!. By the time we did that, it was like 7 and we went home and had dinner. The next day we went to my Grandmas for T-day. It was good to see all the old relatives, and i even met some i didnt know about!

We spent the night there and let me tell ya, what an adveturous night it was! I was not a witness of this story, but it is so completely hysterical that I have to pass it on. All the adults had the beds (my parents, aunt and uncle, and granny and gdad) Thats just how it works in our family, and the cousins sleep on the couches or whatever. So i was in the grand kid's room on the really uncomfortable pull out bed. Sterling was in the living room on the couch. My Grandma said that when she gets up in the morning she would wake him up so that he could go sleep in a more comfortable bed. So that morning 6'2'' Ster got up, and got in bed with Grandad. Gdad was awake at this point, and they began talking about somethings in bed. About 10 minutes later, my Grandad gets up completely NUDE! My cousin shocked says, "grandad, youre naked!" And he answers "well, we were born like this werent we." haha i couldnt believe my ears when i heard that. If youre completely grossed out by now, i know...just imagine your own grandpa naked..hahaha.
ANYWAY the next day went back to Lubbock (we got back around 6 in the evening, just in time to see the last 5 minutes of the A&M- TU game...:( ) And I left for the airport around 10 then next morning. It seems like it went by soo fast, but I will be back there in a few weeks. This blog is suuuuuperrrrrr long. anyway, till next time!!! much loove...:)

UH- OH

Wooowee TGIF, its finally here. This week has been a doosy to say the least. And i am def counting down the days till thanksgiving and christmas already :) I think its like 10 days till thanksgiving- i cant wait! I am going up to Lubbock and Julies coming too. We're going to have soo much fun. I think all my moms side is coming to my parents house too.
I hate how christmas decorations ruin the whole existence and meaning of thanksgiving. The first christmas lights were sighted on 11/9. Isnt there like an understood rule to wait till a day after thanksgiving?

Anyway, back to whats happened this week..today i tried giving blood and i was turned down..and no, its not what youre thinking- the reason is not because i dont weigh enough lol
They wouldnt let me because i went to Honduras this past summer. They were like "ohh, no Honduras is a very malaria-concentrated country." I was like, uhh i think i would know if i had freakin MALARIA. It made me mad, i was making myself sick all day for nothing..all day i could not stop thinking about it because my vains dont bump up out of my skin. I was afraid theyd have to jab me till they found one. I really wish i could have given blood..i just wanted to help some one :( its not like i have STDs or anything lol I also wanted those cool t shirts and food haha

There was, however, a not so good thing that happened this week involving me, my car, and a TREE. I was backing out in a hurry, and the huddlestons cars were like a centimeter away from my car. So as i was vilagently watching the right side of my car, this tree came out of no where on my left side..and kinda BROKE my side mirror off completely. I was in such a big hurry and i was really stressed out at the time, so i just kept driving.
The next day i took it to this body shop, and they were like "ohh no we dont fix that big of problems, you need to take it to a dealership." I thought GRREAT, now i get to go some place where they completely over charge me. And they did...$314.76 to be exact. Moral of the story: if something falls off your car, just duck tape it on.
Song of the day: "Crash" DMB, oldie but a goody
Quote of the day: "dont eat foods youre allergic to"

(philosopher ashley wilkins)

Foozeball and HOT non-skanks

wow, its been like a century since i posted my last blog! I think fate was working against me because i tried to post a new blog like RIGHT after my cali trip, which was like a month ago. And the first time i was completely done and somehow it accidently got erased. And then the second attempt was stopped by lovely Jett. lol I was kinda "babysitting" him and he was like "Close your eyes and guess where im hiding" so i just pretended like i wasnt looking and he hid...the next thing i knew Jett was behind the computer desk and the screen went BLACK. He unplugged the computer, and i was pretty perturbed. i didnt get mad at him but i really didnt feel like trying the 3rd time. But now i finally have my own computer and the internet! Yahooo.
well, a lot has happened since, but it would take forever to catch up on everything..
this weekend my dad came in and visited me...i was really excited! we went out to eat with julie thursday night, and then went to the game. I was sad we didnt win, but Bryan sucks anyway, and i guess they needed that as an ego booster for being a gay school. I just wish it wasnt on MY senior year.but whatever.
Then Saturday we went to my cousins football game in houston, the Cougars. They won, and it was a lot of fun..we went out to eat at Olive Garden after.
My weekend doesnt sound very fun...but it really was lol
Im just tired and dont feel like explaining all of it...ohh but i DO have a really hysterical story to share! :)
This was a while ago but its still really funny.
This was like 2 weeks ago, the monday before Halloween. Its a senior girl tradition to dress up for StuCo and skanky prostitutes...which WOULD be really funny. Except at the meeting our president announced to the entire council that he expects to see some "loose women" next week. We got ticked that he would say that, and we would have dressed like that but we didnt want to just because they expected us to. So a lot of people were going to rebbel, and do the opposite: dress as like nuns or amish people. Then Julie and I thought we could dress as like prom queens, but cover up completely, like head to toe. We thought it was a really funny idea, so we went to good will and got these WAAAY cute (not really) dresses and we teased our hair - abird could lay an egg in my hair im sure. Needless to say we looked completely hot, but we were NO skanks. So we show up and we almost collapse from laughing because Ciana is dressed in complete black, she says she was Amish but she looked more like a Muslim woman. She was pretty peeved that we werent dressed like her, i think it was a misunderstanding, but it was hysterical. Since we looked so cute, we had to stop by Maurice's. Him and Jake were about to go to a movie, and they invited us to go with them. Even though it was a weeknight, some stuff you just cant pass up. So we went to the movies, and got SOO many stares, it was hillarious. I guess theyve never seen such good lookers before.

Life is good, and school is lame...what else is new? But overall im having fun!
Song of the day: "On Fire" switchfoot
Quote of the day: "Life is an STD" lol i just thought this was funny..

BIG POOLS, FANCY CARS

jUST got back from Cali and i miss it already! i could have seriously stayed another month. On thursday afternoon i went to the airport, i was very surprised to see my pal Mario there! It was the weirdest thing because we were both missing coach cliff's class at the same time. So after my flight landed in Dallas, Mario and his dad and I walked to our connecting flight together. I was just happy to be alive after riding those dinky planes that feel like theyre about to fall apart. So after Mario and his dad left, i met up with my mom :) I havent seen her in like a month so i was really happy! On the way there we watched Shrek 2, which was hillarious. When we arrived @ Orange County/John Wayne airport (whatever they call it) my sister and my dad was waiting there. We were like ONE big happy family again! lol. Since my mom had a conference, the people paid for her hotel in Disneyland and we got to go to Disney's house of blues. So that night we went to Rainforest Cafe for dinner. After we dropped my parents off at the hotel, my sister and i drove to Malibu, where her dorm is.

We got to pepperdine at like 11, so to me it was really like 2 am. I was drifting off pretty much the whole way there, and my sister would wake me up for the 'important' stuff like seeing the LA strip and when she saw deer on the side of the road. We finally got there and i ended up having to sleep in my sister's twin bed with her because this girl was studying in the common room with the couch. So i woke up the next day with the biggest crick in my neck. I had to wake up kinda early for this tour of pepperdine. So i didnt really get to put on much make up or do my hair. After the tour, i came back to put on make up because i figured if i saw a celeb i had to look my best, haha. ANyways, that day went on, we went shopping on Rodeo Dr. which was fun yet really ANNOYING. Dont even try to go into Versace unless you have a louis vuitton purse, a bently, or a reaaaally rich family member because they will just glare at you. I felt like Pretty Woman. I really dont understand how there are so many rich people in LA and all of them wear designer clothes and all of them drive a mercedes.

So anyway, the day went on and still NO FAMOUS PEOPLE. I was begining to just give up. We spent pretty much the whole day driving around seeing stuff like beverly hills and ucla. We even went to Ralph's, a grocery store where Ozzy O has been seen there buying fire wood. But still, no luck. That night we went to Taverna Tony's which is notorious for having celebs at least every day. It's a good place to go because not many people know about it. They have this amazing caviare(sp?) dip- we didnt exactly know it was that till after, but it was still really good. So, we are sitting there waiting for our food. And in walks Gary Shandlin (hosted the Emmy's, you would know him if you saw him). I was just excited to see a B list star. He must have known the manager because they talked in the front for like 20 minutes. Later, in walks the BARBRA herself, Barbra Streisand that is (and her husband). I couldnt believe and A list star was like 3 yards away from me. I had my camera right there. I always said if i saw a celeb while i was there, i had to take a picture. SOmething made me not take it though. I think if i was on the street i would. But i couldnt because Malibu is her home and she just came to eat dinner. I could have gone home then, that just made my night!

The next day we went shopping in an actual mall. This mall was a little different though because instead of stores like Dillards and buckle it had Tiffanys, Chanell, Dolce and Gabana and Versace. However, we did find some "normal people" stores. This one store Zara, had the best pants EVER! Theyre actually long enough, like 40 inches. I also found my DREAM shoes in Macy's. Only they were kinda expensive so i didnt get them. I did take a picture of them though :) I had to jet out of the store though cause the salesperson was about to come after me.

The next day, I left :( I was so sad. It went by so fast, but I already have a trip planned for this next summer so let me know if you wanna come with me.
All in all it was a really fun trip and im so happy i went. Now i can finally say i met a famous person besides Aladin:).
WOW this blog is so long. Anyways, Quote of the day::: "happiness is having a large, loving, caring, close-knit family in another city."
Song of the day::: Take me Out, Franz Ferdinand, they played that in Cali all the time.